I didn't see that coming.

I had always heard that the biggest game that exists is the game called LIFE, where no one wants to risk losing but everybody has to play.

I realized that i was a part of this game when i was at the most important phase of my career. Aspiration to be 'like a boss' motivated me and my then "friends" to strive hard, leading to the inception of our dream - 9. 

Discipline started settling in, students transformed into professionals and so did the identity of our dream. 

The day that i use to dream about every single night was finally here, which was intentionally selected by me, thinking it would be auspicious. Well, actually it was auspicious, if i look at from an entrepreneur's point of view.  

Every morning pushing the gates of our heaven wide open gave me a sense of joy and pride. This was it, we had made it, or that's what i at least thought and strongly believed in. I knew it was never gonna be easy, but i was content being a part of a team that had the capability to conquer everything. Wikipedia says that a team comprises of a group of people linked in a common purpose and i thought of putting those words to the test by building one. 

So it was a self-proclaimed leader blinded by trust, standing along with an insecure soul, a egoistic dreamer, a clean heart joker and a brother from another mother. We always made a great click when stood by each other, but i wish the camera could have captured what was within. 

Insecurity and ego resulted in crevices in the dream, which then led to the most dreadful detour of my life. Although it was never spelled out, i knew what went wrong and this saved me the time i would take to figure out what was it. 

Its been years but there still exists the pain somewhere and a wish to rewind my life so that i could rectify it. But like its said, you need to move on and so i have, with a lot more respect towards life and the brother who always stood by me.

Will be back when the time is right.

- Fahad Parack